suicide, this askes for ya own opinion be ready

[deathdealer1990]

ok here is my question "do you guys effer think about kiling yaself...if so why"

i think it won't be fair if i didn't start

yes, why

why is because i smoke, drink (not mutch but i smoke atleast 2 times a week and not a normal sigarete) i drink (neffer beend runk to serious)

but my paren'ts thing i enffer smoked ebfore (they know i dirnk but they know i don't get drunk) and they brag about it like i know my son he neffer smokes bla bla bla... i also lost my vergginity when iw as 14 my paren'ts still think i havent done it yet...i felt liek they deont know me

that is when is erious thought about it

but i did't do it because i came to a solution...i life with it... sometimes at family meetings it hurts. but that's why i play a lot of wow.. and i do things like uplouding anime on youtube etc... this is my second account that got banned ( i used to haeva account ebfore with around 300 anime episodes) it helps me get trou the day... and ofcourse my gf helpes me i think she and a good friend of mine know me the best sad to say i can't say that about my parents

[SimplyAlex]

that was a hard read (because of all the misspelled words >_>), but i got though it

i did consider suicide at one time, i think everyone at one point in time does. Everyone suffers alot to the point where they just want to escape, like my bands tuba player last year (R.I.P. Graham Johnson).

I do not have suicidal thoughts at this age, but i did have some as a child for stupid things. like there was this one time....i was 7 and i was at a swimming pool. Mom told me to come out and i didnt listen, the lifegaurd ended up having to pull me out <_<. I got home and I was spanked bad. thats the one i can remember the most, but there were at least 2 or 3 others

but getting back to the point, In order for a man to experience true happiness, he must first experience his own share of unhappiness. I believe that quote to be absoulty true and that everyone in their life has had suicidal thoughts.

[valols]

Well, to be truthful, I've never had suicidal thoughts. However, I always think that perhaps it would be better if I didn't exist in the first place. Not suicidal though, just thinking that perhaps my existence is sort of a burden on my parents and stuff like that.

[joel_un]

Hmm... Well, i think i At Least had some suicidal thoughts before...about 1-2 years ago... i was extremely emo when i was 13-14 years old... lol

Not exactly interested in commiting suicide. But i kept imagining what would happen if i died. Would anyone care? would anyone cry? would anyone bother about me? & somehow like val, thinking i'm a burden on everyone, being so selfish and making everyone else suffer....

Even until now, I still don't exactly think i have the "right" place in this world yet.

Maybe that's why i'm sooo interested in shojo animes and romance animes that are always searching for the "true one"... LoL..Searching for the place where they belong in the world...x)

Okay. getting back to the topic. I am still on the journey of searching for the "true one"... LoL... Cause now i've gained a lil self-esteem... not a lot, just enough to live on without resorting to suicidal.... & i believe that i have some qualities and probably deserve a life, and I should try being less selfish and try to make other people happy soo... I'm Living on... :)

[mandyxo]

Well people would look at me like my friends or peers and think, You suicidal ? Never !

Actually I have I think quite recently, like nearly a year ago. It had things to do with secrets and actually finding out who my best friends really were. As well as family issues came into play for me. My parents are too strict and I'm an only child so I can't really get away with anything and sometimes I feel so lonely that I can't do what I really want to do. I don't get to be a normal kid to hang out with friends. I feel like I don't really have friends because I'm so isolated at home. That's why I happen to dedicate this time talking on the internet meeting new people (= But still I have had thoughts about yeah .. because I wonder how my parents would think if they knew how much pressure they put on me. Like so much I would want to kill myself to get out of that loop.

Sigh well I'm still here. Still in my everyday loop trying to cope with it <_< It's not like I'm totally emo or anything but sometimes it's just the way my logic works and my thoughts that leave me frustrated. I've cried many times wishing I had a different life. Meh. And it's all FAMILY'S EVERYTHING; IT'S MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE. That's like my family's motto <_< .. Apparently even more than my social life. Like without it I could break apart. I can't tell my family everything. My mom expects me to tell her everything. If I did she'd probably disown me or something. I swear like I'd rather kill myself than go through that -_- I just make up stuff to tell her and to avoid from something worse happening. After I look at this, I think well maybe my problem isn't as bad compared to other people's problems; yeah it is true. Compared to someone else, they'd probably laugh at my problem. But hey it's my problem and I haven't dealt with anything worse so in my perspective, it's the worst thing that could already happen to me.

I don't think I would actually kill myself anyways because first; I'm a wimp and I'm too scared to xD and second; I've already promised someone to stay in one piece xD So yeah if that someone's reading this I really do promise xD

[valols]

Speaking of suicide, this reminds me of me trying to tell my friend to not do it about 2 years ago. She was really depressed at that time with lots of problems.. In the end, we were both crying a lot.. She's good now. Her life has been much much better than what it used to be. :)

[deathdealer1990]

you know some people think i am weird of soming up with this subject but then again... you are quiet sick not to think about it alteast a few times in ya life.

i also think that each of use have a reason on this planet.. the ones who don't know there reason are the ones who kill themself..

i don't now mine atleast not planning to search fo rit either i will see what happens

and then again is suicide a bad thing

"there is nothign either good or bad, but thinking makes it so" good words from a good proffesor (also used in ff13)


so sit down a\nd think is it a bad thing to think why you are even alive wouldn't it be better to die so others find peace?

[valols]

Well, sure, there might be some people who would find peace if you're dead, like your enemies, but I'm sure the rest would be broken hearted. So for now, we've got to keep on living and find out our purposes in life. That's what I think. I mean, since I'm alive, I would might as well make it as good as it can be, since a human would only live for about 60-90 years. That's not a short time, but it isn't long either, if you want to fill your life with doing lots of things. I could like spend half on it on watching anime alone but yeah, I'm sure I can find lots of other things to do as well. :P

[kevinner]

hmmm Actually to tell the truth i tried to commit suicide but then something came to my mind..."am i really going to end it like this am i really going to die pathetically" and then i proved my self to them and show them who i am

this happened 5 years ago when i am being scolded by my family for some crome i didnt do and no one belived me and i got critizied by my own family <_< but dont worry PAST IS PAST .... u just need courege to overcome ur self

[joel_un]

"crome" or "crime" ??? (O_O)

btw, Care to explain whta kinda crime it was and how u got blamed for it? because if it made you thought about suiciding, i wonder what kinda crime is it..... :huh:

[phmilkshake]

Would you mind telling us your crime kevinner? ;) I hope that's not extreme...

To the subject of suicide:

For me suicide is not on good or bad part, its not a matter of situation either. When you end up your life you must be responsible with your own self... I mean when your gone you'll miss other parts of your life that must be cherished of...

Think first before you do something... because:

1. At least somebody would cry at your grave. Would you choose death rather that staying with them?
2. Are you willing to sacrifice your future? No one can forecast their own future... Maybe tomorrow somebody helps you but you're not there.
3. Emotions, compare it with the weather... Who knows what tomorrow bring.
4. Some people really need help but, will they help themselves?
5. Lastly, it's not foolish to nearly commit suicide but doing it doesn't solve it... One escapes it!

thats my point of view no offence my friends...

[Azure]

this is my reason. if u want to do it, do it already! i dont really care if u die or not but just dont make other ppl feel sry for ur ass about killin urself. if u tell other that u want to kill urself, ur just wantin ppl to feel sry for u and how hard ur life is but hey, every one life is hard, it not so easy than it looks. but...
i try to kill myself once, so i no how the pain goes like.
but anyways, if anyone plannin doin that, u must be pretty stupid then *nods*

[kevinner]

nah! that crime was, well i was accused of raping a 6years old girl and soo like everyone was like whaaat i cant belive u did that to a lil kid ... and soo well i was kinda scared back then and come to my last resort was to kill my self not to make them feel sory but for me to escape that freaking situation i mean 60% of people being acused of false crime here in philipines get to jail for absolutely no reason i mean the attornies are asdumb as hell, knowing these factors make me come to that plan suicide <_< .... yes yes i know i know ,, it was a bad idea but for a 13 year old me back there at that time i was like trembling with fear with no one supporting me.. AND BELIVE ME , U CANT IMAGINE HOW IT FELT LIKE BACK THEN IT WAS LIKE A LIVING HELL FOR ME

[valols]

That must have been bad :( Well, at least the misunderstandings got cleared up right?

We should all treasure our lives. Nothing is worth more than our lives :) Even if life is a pain in the ass sometimes, we all have our share of problems and we should work hard to cope with it.

[kevinner]

yup that misunderstanding was cleared B)